Again?Again? by PaperKat42
I want to be happy
But I want to make them happy too
People keep telling me to follow the crowd
But I have finally found a shred of spiritual happiness
My heart feels so free
I do not want to lie to myself
I do not want to be hollow and grey
To float around like a ghost
I want to shine like moonbeams at midnight
To fly like a bird in the clouds
Maybe I will have to keep this a secret
Meditate behind closed doors
Find enlightenment after hours
If the people I care about really care for me
Why do they not want me to smile
I finally found the key to my cage
But now I wonder if I should use it
It makes everyone so upset
I wish they would not make me choose
I Believe...I BelieveI Believe... by PaperKat42
I will admit it
I do not believe in God
Some part of me just can not
How am I suppose to believe that there is some guy in the clouds?
Watching over us?
Answering our prayers?
There are so many terrible things happening in the world
Why does He not just fix it?
Why does He not help us?
Is He just testing us?
Trying to determine how strong our faith is?
Maybe I am wrong
I am not the one that believes in Him
If you choose to believe in God, then I am truely happy for you
You have the ability to believe in something I never will
I just can not
I have tried
But it always ended the same way
I was left feeling even more lost and confused
I once thought there was something wrong with me
Everyone I knew believed in Him
But I could not
Now I know I do not have to
I am going to find something that I can believe in
Something that makes my heart feel good
Makes my mind think
Makes me feel like I have found my own personal peace
I have been re